Phases

Hello, I'm back! Well actually, I've been elsewhere online. But I do try to drop by here every now and then to see how you're all doing. I'm sure that you all have gone through phases in your lives, you get interested in one thing and really dive into it, until something new comes along and you move on to that. For example: I was once really into the movie Men in Black, which got me into Tommy Lee Jones and his movies. I've probably seen MIB 30-40 times until I finally got over that phase and moved on to a new one. I'm not gonna get into what every single phase I have been in, but what I have learned is that when they say that "nothing lasts forever" it really is true. no matter what phase I've been in, at that time I always thought that I was gonna love it forever. I still like the movie MIB, but I haven't seen it in quite a while now.
I have also gone through musical phases. Most of them come and go. I'll listen to one band for a while, then I get in the mood for another, but unfortunately there are some that I have gotten sick of! I was once really into Rage Against the Machine, so much that I got into the left-wing politics of that band. What's ironic is that before Rage, I was a republican because my parents were and I followed their politics blindly. But then after Rage, I re-registered as an independent, but this time I followed the politics of that rock band blindly. That leaves three reasons why I'm not into Rage anymore, one, I've learned that I don't have to agree with the same issues that a band believes in, two, there is a time and place for political music. (Bruce Springsteen & Tom Morello's duet on "The Ghost of Tom Joad" is an exception due to the economy) but because of the crime shows I watch, I have a new respect for cops, which is why I can't listen to Rage's song "Killing in the name of" even though I know that song is about the cops who are dirty and do racial profiling. Third, my ex-boyfriend Richard was so obsessed with that band, and I mean OBSESSED! He was beyond fanatic. He made me sick of them! There are also certain songs that got ruined because of my ex-friends being into them. I can never listen to the Rolling Stones' "Beast of Burden" because my ex-friend Lisa liked that song, but it's OK cause I never liked that song anyways, but when ever it comes on the radio, I have to change the station quickly. Ironically I can still listen to the band Korn because I got into them before I met Lisa, and after our friendship ended for good, Korn comes out with their "Untitled" album, which is the only one I have not listened to with my ex-friend. But I still listen to their other albums, but since I am really into the Law & Order shows, I imagine their songs going along with a lot of the characters, especially SVU. I guess you can say that I have successfully taken my ex-friend out of the picture whenever I listen to Korn. Now if only I could do the same with Rage Against the Machine!
Right now, I am really into two different things: All three Law & Order's, and Metallica! I know that the Metallica part will come and go. But as for Law & Order, I now know that won't last forever, especially since those shows won't be around forever. However, at least I'll enjoy my time as a L&O fan.

One more note before I go. I haven't been able to keep up with Facebook, so I tried to delete the account, but it looks like they won't let you, so I've deactivated it. I didn't like it very much anyways. But I do have a Livejournal account, which I love! My favorite feature is the Friend's page because all new comments by my friends are all in one place. I'll still be here on Blogger, but not very often, but I'm keeping because it has served a good purpose as a diary of my life. I'm considering deleting my MySpace account, but I'm sleeping on that right now.

Well, that's all for now. Take care.

It's Been Awhile

Hello,
I know I've been absent from here, but I've been spending most of my time on svufans.net, which is a forum for Law & Order SVU fans. Anyways, I am going to school part-time since I couldn't get into part two of the web design class and dropped out of Biology. So this leaves Computerized drawing, which is a good class. It's just like a regular drawing class, we work with professional models, the only difference is we draw on computers instead of paper. Well actually...we did draw on paper once, but most of the time we still draw on the computer. We use a special tablet that you plug into the computer and use a plastic pen as the drawing tool. It was difficult at first, but I am slowly learning how to use these tools properly.

In the meantime, I still need to find a job, but with this economy, it's been very difficult. Quite a few stores are closing down, and many positions in the retail and department stores are filled. I decided I'm going to try the Michael's arts and crafts store, again. Last time I landed an interview because of my vast skills in fine arts, but I blew it when I asked about the money in the interview, and that's a huge no no! I think it's been long enough since the last interview, so I am going to try again and hopefully I'll get the job.

Looking Back

I was going through my old posts from February last year and two years ago. Boy have things changed! I can't believe what I wrote two years ago about my now ex-boyfriend! here's the link to that post. Metalchick: I Finally Have a Boyfriend! Of course I have learned from that experience, there's nothing wrong with meeting someone from the internet, but...DO NOT go out with them until you've met "in person" first! It wasn't just the fact that he called me every single day that bothered me, but half of the topics in his conversations were not interesting to me, such as WWE Wrestling. He also almost ruined my love for the band Rage Against the Machine. Not only does he love the band, but he LOVES that band! He is so obsessed with them that every few seconds in his conversations, he'd shout out "Rage!" like he had tourettes syndrome (no offense to anyone with that condition) Anyways, I bring up these topics to reflect on what I have learned so that I don't make the same mistakes again. I had a friend in the past that lived with me for 8 months. She was a former co-worker from Mcdonald's and needed a place to stay, so I asked my parents and we let her in. I'm not going into details, but all I can say is before she came in my life, I had a job, a bank account, no record, good credit, and I was going to college full-time. She's long gone now and I have not seen or spoken to her and I hope to keep it that way. But there's a quote that I heard from the show Law & Order SVU that I remember because it's the truth, and that quote is "There's nothing you can do about the past, we can only move foward into the future." I don't know if those were the exact words, but it does make a good point. Whatever I have done in the past is done and over with. I can't go back and erase it or fix it, but I can do right in the present and the future. Still, it's gonna take a lot of hard work to rebuild what I used to have.

What Am I Gonna Do?

I am worried about my future because I have less than a year to find a job and move out, otherwise my dad is kicking me out and I may be homeless. My biggest problem is I have arthritis that comes and goes, it's been three years since I've had a real job, and I've been going to community college for too long and I'm still not done! I need to find a real job, but the problem is it is hard to find one without knowing somebody. I may have to go back to McDonald's, but that's the last thing I want to do, but if I have to, I will. After all, nobody forces you to eat their food.

I really want to be a graphic designer, but many of the graphic design jobs want experienced people, but where do I go to get the experience? Internships of course, but where I live, there isn't too many good grphic design jobs out here. My local newspaper wants 3 years experience. I don't want my dream to die, but I am going to have to get a real job so I can move out of my parents house, then hopefully I can go on with making my dream come true.

I hope I can do all these things, but it's so much easier said than done!

Yes We Can!

Wow! I cannot believe the Inaugeration is coming up! And the timing is almost perfect! The day after Martin Luther King Jr's Birthday! (Oh if only it were on that day!) But really, I am excited about the inaugeration because it is such a historical one, we are finally getting our first black President!

I really hope I can see it live, unfortunately I have class tomorrow morning, but I really hope our teacher either has us go to the college cafeteria where it will be shown, or look for a live video over the internet. Lucky for me, this is a computer graphics class, so we've got access to the internet.

Seriously though, I do hope that Obama will keep most of his promises and be a good president. But if not...there's always the 2012 election.

New Years Resolutions

I'm so glad I have this blog, it's become my diary, only I keep up with this one better than a diary you write in. I was looking back at my old entries and in December 2006, I found my New Years Resolution list. I can't believe it was from two years ago! A lot sure has changed since then. One of those resolutions was to practice my guitar more often, but I think I haven't played for about a year! So now that must change.

Another resolution was to keep up with my e-mails and blogs; of course that one I kept very well! I check my e-mail 3-5 times a day, and if I don't check my e-mail for a whole day, I end up with at least 25 e-mails. Of course mopst of them are from the websites fanfiction.net and svufans.net. I read and write fan fiction a lot.

One resolution I will no longer have to add again is having to lose weight. I haven't told you guys this, but I have lost a lot of weight! I should take new pictures of myself and post them up. I went from weighing 180 pounds to 130 pounds. So I've lost about 50 pounds! Unfortunately, the way I lost the weight was due to spending so much time on the computer at school and at home. I would be so absorbed into what I'm doing on the computer that I wouldn't eat until I got off. Also because I wasn't eating often, my stomach shrunk so if I did eat, it would be smaller portions. But this does not mean I'm anorexic, when it got to the point where I realized that I wasn't eating enough, I started working my way back to eating more to get better nutrition, but not too much to where I'd gain the weight back. So now I am eating normally again.

Another resolution on my list was to return the library books in time. Well this one has changed because I haven't been to the library in a while, and I have two books that I have started reading but haven't finished. A while back I started reading "Queen of the Damned" by Anne Rice. I've read the very beginning, but have not gotten to the first chapter yet! And then another book I have started on is "I Am Not A Cop!" by my favorite actor Richard Belzer. I have only read the first page, but haven't quite gotten to the rest of the book. My excuse is that I haven't set aside some time to sit down and read, even though I've got all the time in the world to do so. My sister has been reading the Twilight series by Stephanie Meyer. I got her book two of the series and she whipped through it in just 2-3 days! Then when she went shopping, she bought the third book and already she's almost done, or I think she's done already. When it comes to reading books, I have to do it in one sitting and continue as soon as I can until the book is finished.

Well, that's about all the old resolutions I can remember. So now here's my new and revised list of this years New Years Resolutions:

• Try not to gain the weight back, but maintain my current weight in a healthier way. Now, work on building up some muscle.
• Cut down on my time on the computer and reduce my frequency of checking my e-mails.
• Make better use of my freetime by playing my guitar and reading more books.
• Without spending too much time on the computer, try to keep up with updating my fan fiction more often.

I'll be back to check this list next year to see how I did.

The Best of 2008

Well here it is again, my annual Best of list. Unfortunately I did not get to attend any concerts this year, but hopefully that will change next year. So, here's the best in music, TV, and movies.

Best New Album:

• Indestructable by Disturbed. This is the first album I downloaded in it's entirety, legally. I used my Pepsi points to get it.
• Death Magnetic by Metallica. Fans of Metallica's older albums say that this is the best new album of this band. Although I liked their newer stuff too, I couldn't agree more! They do guitar solos again!
• The Fabled City by The Nightwatchman. Tom Morello rocks harder, but the messages are still clear. I hope to have this album soon.

Best New TV Shows:

• Leverage. A new show on TNT that's like a modern day Robin Hood story.
• Smoking Gun's World's Dumbest...This show is hilarious! From Dumbest Criminals to Dumbest Drivers, and even Dumbest shoppers.
• In Plain Sight. One of the best new shows on USA. It's about a marshal who protects her witnesses that are in the witness protection program all while dealing with her own personal life, her family. The second season begins next summer.

Best Movies:

• The Dark Knight. I didn't realize how bad the other Batman movies were until I saw this one. This movie is actually so much better because it's a lot more realistic. After all, Batman never did have superpowers like Superman or Spiderman, he just had the right tools to fight the bad guys with. Plus, Heath Ledger (RIP) did an excellent job playing the Joker. (But Jack Nicholson did good too)
• Marley & Me. If you've ever owned a dog, this is a great movie to see. My family and I all saw it together on Christmas Day.
• Religilous. A documentary by Bill maher who tries to find the answers about God. It is controversial, but if you're not too religious and are open minded, you should see it. I do believe in God, but I don't find anything wrong with asking questions.

My Gingerbread house

As you can see here, I tried to make my own gingerbread house so that I wouldn't have to spend 10 dollars on a kit. Well it was a lot harder than I thought to make the parts to the house. I also didn't make the side pieces triangular on the top to support a roof, so I had to make a flat roof instead. At least the butterbream frosting was successful, I got the recipe off of the Food Network website. Oh well, I still had fun making this gingerbread house, and I know that next year, the next gingerbread house will be better.

I've also been baking thumbprint cookies and later today, I'll be making dark chocolate fudge. I love baking cookies, making candy, and cooking cause that's the best part of this holiday.

I hope you all have a nice holiday. Take care.

New Video up on my Video Blog

Hey everyone!
Still in school , yet I have too much time on my hands. I really need to find a job! Anyways, I have just posted a video from The Daily Show website. It is Richard Belzer's guest appearance on the show. In case you don't know, Richard Belzer is a comedian and actor on the show Law & Order SVU. Anyways, he has also written a new book titled "I Am Not a Cop!" which is a novel based on himself and his TV character John Munch. Anyways, it's hard to explain the book, so I'll let the video do it for me. It's over on "Metalchick's Video Blog".

Keeping Busy

Hi everyone, I'm still here. This month has been quite a busy month for me and my family. Unfortunately, my aunt on my mom's side of the family died recently. Her loser boyfriend was driving drunk and hit a car that had a mother and her baby in it, they're both OK, but my aunt died in the hospital a few days later. Fortunately, her loser boyfriend is sitting in a jail cell and may be charged with manslaughter. I really hope he gets the maximum sentence.
My family and I have sacrificed our weekends to clean up her place, and that was a lot of work! Then this weekend, we had an estate sale to get rid of her stuff. It went better the first day, the second day was slower but went fairly well. The leftover items will be donated to the Goodwill. Next weekend, we'll be going to Arizona for her memorial service. Actually, it's a memorial service for both my aunt and her brother, who died last month from health complications. I just hope the next two months go better for my family. It's always hard to lose loved ones.